it's simple I love you

Yes i am cheesy but when it comes to you

Yes i am selfish because I want you to be only mine.

Yes i am possesive when it comes to you.

Yes I am timid because my biggest fear is losing you.Yes I am crygirl because when you talk about separation feelings are unbearable to me.

Yes I am clingy because I love you so much i want you in my life.

                          .....   Will add more 

random thoughts.

The day he will get to know how long I have waited for him,I think he will be happy and feel proud of himself,

but will he realise how much i have gone through in this time?

how much patience it Takes? 

what kinda situations i have faced?

and will it accure in his mind even for a second how loyal I am..?

 it is just a random thought .. because i know i don't have right to have expectations.. it's just love which is unforgettable and irreplaceable love.💗

@Circle_of_Life #Circle_of_Life #love

waiting..and good bye...

If there is anything in the world that I don't like even a little, they are… waiting for someone and saying goodbye to someone.

Yes it's true...I think I don't have very essential thing like patience and guts. Patience too wait..and guts too say goodbye..

Even though I can wait but the hardest thing I felt in life is to say goodbye to my loved ones. I don't want them to leave.i don't want to be distant from my people.. I don't have courage to bear those pain. 

मेरा गांव! बदला हुआ, पर अपना सा।

वर्षों बाद जब आना हुआ.. शहर की हलचल से गांव की सरजमीं पर.. रास्ते बदले बदले से .. पता पूछने लगे।

ओ मिट्टी वाली सड़के अब कंक्रीट बन चुके थे,

पेड़ों से घिरे वो ठंडे शान्त रास्ते अब.अब घर की चहारदीवारी से घिरे नज़र आ रहे थे।

वो बागवानी जहा हम बचपन में टिकोरे बिनने जाया करते थे, वो फील्ड जहा हम खेलने और साइकिल सिखा करते थे,अब नज़र नहीं आया। 

घरों की गहनता शहरों को कुछ वर्षों में टक्कर देने को तैयार बैठी थी।

वो पहला स्कूल जहा हम टोले के सारे बच्चे झुंड में पढ़ने जाया करते थे..रास्ते में दिख गया.. विरान सा बन्द पडा।

घर का दुआर जहां शाम होते बच्चो के खेलने की कोलाहल गूंजा करती थी..मौन पड़ा, मायूस सा नजर आ रहा था।

 जाना हुआ एक दिन स्कूल में भी अपने एक्साइटमेंट हाई था यादें ताजा थी...चार वर्षो की अपनी वो यात्रा कोई भुले से भी कैसे? जाकर वहां एक भी जब जाना चेहरा न नजर आया ..तो वो अपना यादों से भरा स्कूल भी अनजाना सा समझ आया।

इतने बदले–बदले माहौल में.. वर्षों जहां बीते, अपना होकर भी वो जगह जाने क्यों? पराया सा नजर आया।

मगर जब बीते कुछ दिन तो वो भेंट मुलाकात जब अपने बचपन के दोस्तों से हुई तो सारा बदलाव कही बहुत छोटा नजर आया। हम वैसे ही वहीं जहा बिछड़े थे मिले।

उनकी बातो लहजो और तरीको में न कोई बदलाव आया था, वो भी सहेजे बैठे थे उन यादों को दिल में जो ई कभी चाह कर भी न मिल पाएगी ..बचपन के जाने कितने खेल,जाने कितनी बाते ,जाने कितनी यादें।

मगर सबके साथ मन में एक ख्याल बदलाव के साथ ये यादें समेटे जगहें, क्या अगली मुलाकात तक रहेंगी? 

That old place...a corner of my home roof

 Years later, when I went there, he welcomed me without forgetting and celebrated my presence. 

He still knew today, how to calm my restless mind. He filled my heart with a sigh of joy without saying anything. 

For that time, it felt like I am in a different world, a world where everything is possible. A new world full of hope and joy.

 If you talk about logic, you do not understand how one place, a slight roof corner, can do so much.

But then I do not want to think anything because if logic is not right and magic is right, but I have always found peace there.

And I may not be able to tell this magic to anyone, but the heart has always felt.

(....in memories..in present)

@अनकही_बातें

© Circle_of_life

Hope #2021

Hope #2021

A hope that this new year brings a new life/energy/power in world of humen.

A hope that those who survived through this pandemic year will always remember the lesson given by nature and also pass this lesson to next generation.

2020 a year, Taught us so many things.

And also given us time to take a break from this so cold busy life.. to analyse yourself... To choose your way... To correct your wrong doing... Tought us basic manner..tought us to respect things we are using as free and so many more...

Even we face so many loses But..also teaches us a lot of things.. given us a lot new ideas...

And hope for 2021 we can use those ideas.. lesson.. observation.. and view from 2020..and we will make 2021 beautiful .. peaceful... And virus-free.. year.....

Wish you all #hopefull #wishfull #happy #new #year #2020 #2021 #happynewyear

In a time of sadness.........

                         SADNESS

How sad am I? So much that there is no  desire to write, nor to tell anyone. I also feel like crying, but can't cry. I do not feel like doing anything, but I feel like doing a lot.He is not willing to tell anything to anyone, does not feel like going in front of anyone, but wants to open his heart in front of someone, wants to hold someone and cry. But the funny thing is that no one

Whom you can hold and cry.

There is no heart to tell anyone and who in the world has meant so much to anyone who asks someone about themselves, who understands themselves.

                                         ... to be continued

                                            @अनकही_बातें circle_of_life